Today.... Today my brain has had enough of its fullness and shut down. I've been staying up way too late because I'm too tired to get off the couch and go to bed. Repeat. My head is full of work, deadlines, domestics, motherhood. All I want to do is go shoot some film and create some amazing photographs (no pressure). The afternoon light in winter is so unbelievably beautiful making me crave creation. When I haven't got time to create I tend to look outward in an overboard kind of way. I see so much talent, so many gorgeous photographs, beautiful art works. Wishing I was way better than I am. Jealous of their supporters. Meanwhile I'm losing 'likers' and 'followers' when I share my personality on social media. Wishing I was more. But looking inward I know I am me and that is enough. Although I haven't got new and shiny work to share regularly I am madly working behind the scenes and am so happy where I'm at with my work. I've still got a lot to learn. I can push myself a lot further. There are so many photographs to come.
Totally hear you! Some days it's hard not to feel like the oil in everyone else's machine... But there is the looking out, and the going within & at some point that will convert to wonderful. You are more than enough.
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